The Difficulties of My 'S'

Do you know Darwin? Yep, i think you all know him, a pioneer of evolution theory. There is a chapter on his phenomenal (and obviously controversial) book, "The Origin of Species", entitled "The Difficulties of The Theory". He was told some difficulties of his theory, or some rebuttals that may arise from his theory.
Hm. So, what the relation of Darwin's theory with this post? Nothing. *gubrak*
I just want to "steal" his chapter-title, "The Difficulties of The Theory", and I modify it with "The Difficulties of My S".
What is S?
In Indonesian, it called "skripsi". A (mini)thesis that must be written to reach bachelor degree. For short, let's call it S.
In this term, I omly write Proposal of my S, as known as Research Design.
So, what the difficulties of my writing? Let me to tell you.


1. Access. I don't have any link that connect me with the society in my research location. Oh, i have one. A junior high school girl, and now...she doesn't live there anymore. She has moved to another house, another area. I only get some informations about the location and the general situation on this area. I have to go to that location...alone. By angkot and ojek.

2. COST. Yeah, COST. Why do I type it in capital letters? Because it really "hurt" me..."hurt" my money T_T I spend about Rp50.000-Rp100.000 for a day of my research.

3. The focus of my research is such a sensitive issues: marriage and family. Sometimes i feel difficult to begin chat with the society about this topic. Moreover, sometimes, the answers of the same (and general) questions that I asked to some people are indicate a contradiction. It makes me confused *_*

4. There is no parents in my home. My dad lives in Jayapura for his official, with my mom. They are my spirit, my strength. For me, they are a "real home", a place that i want to "go" dan "stay" everytime... But now I can't meet them everyday :(

Ok, that's all. I hope you all want to give a spirit for me...give your pray for my continuity research... Hope my research is not only give benefits for me, but also for many people. Wish me luck! :D

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...and i don't know why i have to write this curcol in English -_-
Desperate effect? Stress effect? -_____-

Umm, maybe it could be a reminder for me: "You have to be grateful Niken, you write your S in Indonesian, your daily language, not in other languages! Your S is not really difficult! You have to keep your spirit, keep moving on!"
Uuyeeeaaaaaaahh!
Bismillah :D

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